Too many thoughts one moment little to none the next Sometimes I think I studied for the completely wrong test. My thoughts race so fast that my conscious brain can't keep up Then a couple days later it all turns to mush. Sometimes I don't wanna be myself being me is so tiring, switching from one extreme to another... Sometimes I even find myself to be frightening. empty or full. passionate or dull. all brain or just skull. win the money or pay the toll. I'm purple and yellow, I'm red and I'm green, I'm complimentary colors - and nothing in between. I'm underwhelmed and I'm bored, I crave chaotic stress… My leg bounces and my hands shake My brain is empty yet anxious. A couple months ago I had so much creativity, I'd stay up till 3 am every night writing stories and doing art using pen and paintbrush to describe all my tales from the past about lovers who didn't last, and all my ideas about the now - in my opinions I could've drowned. And for the future I dreamed about all the things and places I could be… Hyper manic or just manic - the cause of a superfluous brain. I was mad and volcanic - I'd even call myself insane Never bored and always bothered by petty shit or nothing really I created so much content - everything came so easily. But then gradually things began to shift up or down or all around I couldn't tell you the difference except that now my brain doesn't make a sound… and all I have is the faint remembrance.